May 1 – At some point over that first week of grieving constantly, I was struggling with what happened the day Liliana was born. I was only 33 ½ weeks. Why now, during my third pregnancy, did my water break so prematurely? We had a birth plan and this wasn’t it. It’s worth mentioning what…

April 26 – The day after Liliana was born, my husband and my 3-year old daughter came to visit around 10 a.m. This was the day we would tell her that Liliana wasn’t coming home and that she went to be with Jesus in heaven. But once again, she came in wanting to see her…

April 25, 2017 – The day I will remember for the rest of my life. It was around 4:15 p.m. The girls had both recently gotten up from a great 2-hour nap, so I was well rested too. It was a beautiful day out, so we were getting ready to go outside to play. And…

Mid-February 2017 – Pretty early on we were introduced to the pediatric hospice team through our hospital. The non-profit group helps families with fatal pre-natal diagnoses and infants with terminal illnesses. They have helped many families in similar situations to ours from pregnancy through delivery and beyond. Each meeting we had was met with a…

Late January 2017 – The weeks after our ultrasound and Liliana’s diagnosis were filled with appointments with difficult questions and even more difficult answers.  I had no peace those first couple of weeks. Only tears and sadness. I longed for peace… to be able to accept Liliana’s condition and just love her and enjoy whatever time…

January 18 – Ultrasound day. The day we get to meet our baby boy or girl and see him/her up close and personal. While there is always some anxiety, this day is usually met with much excitement and anticipation. My parents and sister were going to meet us for lunch afterwards to find out what…